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2018-03-26 13:10:09| 分类：［生活原创］ | 标签： |举报 |字号大中小订阅

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昨夜做了个荒唐的梦。

梦里竟然回到高考前的补习班～还是落榜了两次的补习班。并且假期作业没有写完～还有好多题不会做、单词背不来。对一天天逼近的高考充满恐惧，对前程一片迷茫。

半梦半醒中，宽慰自己：没有补习、大学毕业、有工作、有家庭...那是梦，不是真的！可现实～是那么地脆弱虚幻，驱不散梦魔的蛊惑。

梦里，不堪回首的，又清晰如昨地重演。因为失败，所以失去！贫穷～限制了一个人的视野，固囿了一个人的思维，更是隔离了青春的青睐！不堪回首的～潜意识里刻意封存，却在半梦半醒的深夜，又一次涌现。

对于失败的恐惧，对于失去的不堪，也许是我不辞辛劳、安于现世的天命基因！

梦里的事～说是也是！那是岁月尘封和独自缄默的记忆！

2018年3月25日凌晨

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